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Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!!


I will be taking a few days to break from posting on here, I know I was away before and did not post, but I want to relax for the holidays. If I do post I will be surprised but nevertheless

I wish all of you a Merry Christmas!!!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Any Girl Can Get What She Wants


Another amazing book that I have read within the past few months is The Go-Getter Girl's Guide. This book is a must read for anyone that wants to succeed and look amazing at the same time. I got this book over a year ago and just read and finished it a few months.

Title: The Go-Getter Girl's Guide
Author: Debra Shigley
Mass Market Paperback: 256 pages
Publisher: St. Martin's Press
Genre: Self-Help
Rating: 4 1/2 out of 5

"Combining the practical career wisdom of What Color Is Your Parachute? with the savvy fashion guidance of The Little Black Book of Style, this dynamite guide is sure to bring out the Go-Getter in generations of women to come."

This little blurb is what sums up what this book is all about. I have not read either of the books that are mentioned above (a few more added to my, What I have to read before I die list). I was so glad I got this book.

This book is written by Debra Shigley who has written numerous books, multiple national television shows, is a journalists who is a senior editor for the magazine Atlanta, and has appeared many more.

In this book it teaches and inspires women in all professions, whether they are in the field already or they are just college students. You learn how to deal with office politics, how to negotiate to get what you want, get mentors, get ahead even though you may not have the qualifications just yet, and how to take care of yourself and look fabulous all at the same time.

For me I thought it was great that someone wrote this book for Women cause it is necessary. This book is not the kind that once you have read it you are done. I not only recommend this book to everyone, I recommend that you reread it over and over again until you have everything burned into your mind.

With how the economy is so bad right now everyone needs all the help they can get to make sure they succeed at life.

My favorite chapters are
* The Best Education is Self-Education
and
*Learn the Art of Negotiation

Both are great chapters I will reread again and again. The only reason why I gave it a 4 1/2 out of 5 instead of a 5 out of 5 is because I believe that she could have written more.

This book is for every woman.

Back from Florida


Last night, around 3 in the morning to be exact we got back from Florida. We left really late from Florida. The reason I was still in Downtown Disney trying to trade the last of the pins that I did not want.

It was fun though I had a lot of fun. Here is the schedule of the trip and boy we did a lot. It was rough though, thanks to the fact that all of us are not in the best shape. I have tendonitis in both of my knees, more so in my on knee than the other. Then we are dealing with my brother who has autism, and my other family members are not in the best of health either.

Nevertheless it was fun though. I had a great time.

I will be talking about it over the next weeks all the while I will be relaxing and enjoying my break from classes.

Here is the order of vacation:
Friday- left school, packed bags and left house. Arrived in Florida late around 9:00pm at Hotel.
Saturday- Islands of Adventures: Wizarding World of Harry Potter
Sunday- Disney Hollywood Studies
Monday- Islands of Adventure
Tuesday- Disney Magic Kingdom
Wednesaday- packed, left hotel, Downtown Disney, went back to Tennessee

I had an amazing time. It was great. I will talk all about the trip within the next week or so. It will take me time because I still have a great amount of things to do.


Thursday, December 16, 2010

Stephen King Challenge!

I am very excited! Over on Book Chick City's blog I saw a challenge. I love challenges.

The challenge is that for the all of 2011 the person who is participating has to read 6-12 books written by the scare master Stephen King. I have always wanted to read Stephen King so this makes me very happy.

I will probably start off with 6 books just because I have classes and have never read anything of his before (I am embarrassed to say). I will begin reading literally January 1, 2011 while I have no classes and when I finish a book I will do a review of it on here. I would like to get to 12, but I will see how it goes.

I am very excited and anyone who has always wanted a good motivation to read his books, this is definitely a great one.

If anyone wants to join here is the link:



Please do join it will be a lot of fun and you can feel good knowing that somewhere out there there is a person like you reading Stephen King.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Three Hearts Desire to be Free


Once again I have decided to read an Inspirational Romance novel. To be perfectly honest, I have read this one before and really fell in love with it. So I wanted to write a book review for it, but I decided to reread it because it had been over a year since I read it. Well here is one of my favorite books.

Title: Brides of the Empire
Author: Darlene Mindrup
Mass Market Paperback: 359 pages
Publisher: Barbour Publishing, Inc.
Genre: Christian Romance/ Fiction
Rating: 5 out of 5

Brides of the Empire takes place during the time of the Roman Empire, when being Christian was worse then being Jewish. There are 3 stories in this book, they are all separate from the other. The first one is called The Eagle and the Lamb, the next one is Edge of Destiny (definitely a romance book title right there) and finally My Enemy, My Love (even a better romance title).

The Eagle and the Lamb

An hunting accident causes the paths of a Jewish girl, Sara and the wealthy tribune, Antonius to cross. Through fate Antonius helps Sara's family out of a terrible situation but at a price. Sara becomes a slave to his sister Diana. Over time as they are in the same household they learn more about the other. Sara with her forthright attitude and not afraid of hiding who she is and what she believes astonishes and inspires Antonius. Diana, Antonius, and there friends undergo a change within themselves for the better.

Edge of Desinty

Decimus, the boy that fell in love with Sara is now a man and on his own. One day he sees a bunch of slaves being sold and one caught his eye. The reason, all the others were staring at her and he was feeling concerned and afraid for her; knowing how men though. Chara is the woman that he bought so that she could be saved. Unfortunately things got worse for the Christians in Rome and Chara just fell into the middle of the mess with Decimus being one. There are two obstacles (1) Can Chara trust Decimus? and (2) Will Decimus get over Sara?

My Enemy, My Love

In a world where Christians are hated more then Jews and hated by both Jews and Romans, it definitely is an obstacle for Anna and with being a Samaritan, it does not make things any easier. . She crosses paths one day with a Jewish man, Barak, who strongly hates and distrusts Christians and Samaritans. He saves her from being run down by a chariot and soon after they keep running into each other. He discovers soon that Anna's bethrothed to an Arab businessman will cause her to become in great danger and Barak is the only one that is able to help her and is the only one that she could trust. The Enemy of my enemy, is my friend. Along the way they both get to know each other better, and change how people so different can really have so much in common. So is the enemy of my enemy, is my friend and my love?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Busy with Exams & Christmas


Yah, No more classes for the semester. Right now I all I have to do is get ready for the 4 exams I have, 3 are on Monday and 1 is on Wednesday. I am so excited!!! To be done that is, not take exams, and of course Christmas. I'm not so much excited for the getting present part this year, although that will be fun. I am really excited cause I just am, it will be nice to not do anything for classes. I have so much to do though!!!

Here is my list of things I have to do:
  • Study for exams
  • Get stuff together for the vacation
  • Work on the Christmas Story present for my boyfriend
  • Get all of my friends addresses to send them Christmas Cards
  • Call my friends
  • Merry Christmas/ Thank you notes for my Professors
  • Practice the Flute for my family on Christmas
  • Get my brother a gift
  • Get a birthday gift for one of my friends son
There is so much I have to do!!! Not to mention I have to clean my room today cause one of my friends is back from Illinois! I can't wait to see her.

In other news I got a 98 on one of my French tests!!! Go me!!! Other than that I have just been working hard and trying to get everything done.

Pretty soon I will be starting up some book reviews. I have finished books I just haven't had the chance to write reviews on them. They are really good too, I can't wait!

Well off to work I go, I should really get stuff done, I have many things I need to do before she comes over.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

I'm thankful I'm a Writer because....

I’m thankful I’m a writer because it helps me to talk with people and deal with my emotions. I have a hard time in the past expressing my emotions because I have always felt and have been taught that a person should not wear their emotions on their sleeve. So I have only had a few outlets in life to help express myself emotionally. First it was dance, then music, and now for quite some time writing. I started dancing when I was 5 years old and have loved it ever since. With music, either through playing my flute or singing, I still have a love hate relationship with flute and singing, well I have been told that I can sing well, but I still feel self conscious. With writing though, it is a whole other story.

With writing I have always loved the thought of writing books and having other people read them and love them as I have when I pick up a book. I have so many ideas that I simply want to share with the world. I don’t want to just write fantasy, I want to write sc-fi, historical fiction, nonfiction, romance, biographies, self-help, religious, poetry, short stories, essays, etc. I want to write in ever field of writing that exists, why because I have so many amazing ideas and I know I can blow the world away with my writing.

I am really good; when I actually apply myself; when I do, I feel like I have really accomplished something amazing and spectacular. In my mind I hear a voice say, ‘yes there is something that I am good at that I know I can make a profit off for the rest of my life’. Is that the reason I write, because I want to make a profit and become famous, YES! If any writer says that it is not for the fame or profit, or both, I would say they are lying or they have been writing for many years in the business and don’t care about all that anymore. I could be wrong though.

There is another reason why I love writing and therefore I am thankful. I am great at writing, I really am. To be honest I want to be great at everything I do whether it involves music, art, athletics, etc. It is that same with writing. It does come naturally to me and whenever a person is naturally gifted at something, it should be cultivated and shared with the world; take advantage of this wonderful opportunity.

Most of all, I am thankful for being a great writer because the best part is that you can talk about everything. That is a very good thing because I find everything interesting and fascinating. Few things in life bore me and this is a perfect outlet for me to be able to explore the world and express myself as well; all for the sake of my next book. I am truly thankful.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Zobeide Invisible Cities


Above is my very awesome English project. For my project I had to take a book that was in the textbook, but had not read. Then I had to study about it, write a paper on it and give a presentation to my class. We were allowed to get creative and do what we want.

So I decided to do a puppet show. Yes it is silly and no its not supposed to look professional. It was my 1st time doing a puppet show and making a movie. I was very excited and the fact that I got an "A" on it just makes me even more happy.

For my topic I focused on Italo Calvino's Invisible City http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Italo_Calvino

Invisible Cities is about a conversation between Marco Polo and Kublai Khan. Kublai Khan feels that his empire is failing and so he has Marco Polo tell him stories of the many wonderful places that he has been to. But the more Marco Polo tells Khan stories, the more the emperor begins to doubt Polo. About what?? Well that's something you will have to find out. :D

Now here is the back ground story to this video to see where I got the idea from. Remember the movie is not an actual representation of this part:


From there, after six days and seven nights, you arrive at Zobeide, the white city, well exposed to the moon, with streets wound about themselves as in a skein. They tell this tale of its foundation: men of various nations had an identical dream. They saw a woman running at night through an unknown city; she was seen from behind, with long hair, and she was naked. They dreamed of pursuing her. As they twisted and turned, each of them lost her. After the dream, they set out in search of that city; they never found it, but they found one another; they decided to build a city like the one in the dream. In laying out the streets, each followed the course of his pursuit; at the spot where they had lost the fugitive's trail, they arranged spaces and walls differently from the dream, so she would be unable to escape again.
This was the city of Zobeide, where they settled, waiting for that scene to be repeated one night. None of them, asleep or awake, ever saw the woman again. The city's streets were streets where they went to work every day, with no link any more to the dreamed chase. Which, for that matter, had long been forgotten.
New men arrived from other lands, having had a dream like theirs, and in the city of Zobeide, they recognized something from the streets of the dream, and they changed the positions of arcades and stairways to resemble more closely the path of the pursued woman and so, at the spot where she had vanished, there would remain no avenue of escape.
The first to arrive could not understand what drew these people to Zobeide, this ugly city, this trap.

This is only a part of the book and the part of the story. You will just have to find out what the actual conversation that took place between Kublai Khan and Marco Polo.

I hope you all like it. You can go to the youtube and leave comments there if you want to.

Enjoy!!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!!


Wow, it is already thanksgiving. Not too long ago it was Halloween. As I get older, the years seem to go by faster, a part of me wants it all to slow down just so that I can ebjoy.

But at the same time I am very glad, because soon I will be done with my 1st full semester at Pellissippi State. Go me! It has been quite the challenge, but I am very glad that I went on and pushed through it.

Now this Thanksgiving I decided to do something I have never done before, really give thanks to all those in my life and why I am thankful.

Here it goes:

To...
  • My Mother- she has always been there for me and listened to me and taught me how to deal with everything in life. She has taught me how to be a strong woman and have belief in myself.
  • My Father- a strong man who taught me how to love my country and taught me to take pride in myself.
  • My Brother, Sean- he taught me (and still is) teaching me patience. With him having autism, it is very hard and very frustrating. He also taught me to not judge, be afraid or uncomfortable with people who are different.
  • My Grandma- she is such a hard worker and is always good for a laugh. She is very strong and has taught me a lot about where my family had come from. I'm so glad she lives with us.
  • Amber- my dog, the biggest and most lovable ditz ever. She is hilarious and so insecure. But our family would not be complete without her.
  • Christopher- my wonderful and amazing boyfriend, he has taught me so much that it would take a whole book to explain it all. But I will say is that he has brought a lot of laughter in my life, but also helped motivated me to become a better person for me, myself and no one else. That is the greatest gift he has given me.
  • All my old friends- thank you. I have learned so much from all of you. Listening to all of you and learning from your lives has helped me appreciate my life more and taught me to look at life from another persons perspective. I hope that I will be able to hang out with you again soon.
  • The random people I have met and haven't talked to since- although our encounters were brief, you have made and impact and taught me something as well. The lesson may have been small, it may have been big. The important thing is that you were at the right moment, at the right place, at the right time. Teaching me something new. Thank you
  • Jessica- there have been many Jessica's in my life. My best friend from high school, and My big sister from Omega Phi Alpha are just a few. To My BFF from high school, thank you for all the wonderful times we had together, you were very optimistic, kind, passionate and very bubbly. You helped bring out the happy side in me. And to my big sister, you were so understanding, very awesome and you always helped me out, thank you. I know I haven't talked to both of you in a long time, but that changes now.
  • Tanya- You are so sweet. I love your personality. I hope when I'm at your age, I'm still full of life, as kind, and as wonderful as you are. You were very helpful and so much fun to be with. Don't worry, you will see me again, you can't get rid of me.
  • Meredith- I was so glad to have met you. There aren't many people I love, admire and respect and you are one of them. I know we haven't talked in a long time. But I remember all the times that we have spent together and they have made an impact on me. The next time I'm in town. Let's hang out and get some cake :D
  • My cousins- I'm thankful that I have you. Although I don't know all of you as well as I would like, I still remember all the times we got together and it was so much fun. I would still nevertheless want to get to know all of you better and I hope that we could hang out and get to know each other even more.
  • The rest of my extended family- the same goes to you as well. I'm thankful for all the cards and gifts you have sent me over the years, even though we don't always talk and see each other. I would love to spend time with all of you and get to know you better.
  • Dr. Gray- an amazing Professor who has been so helpful to me this fall semester and so full of life. Her thirst for knowledge and desire to be a better person has inspired me greatly. Thank you
  • Professor Rivers- who helped me speak out during class discussions and help me not stay in the background and taught me that yes my opinion matters too.
  • Professor Byrd- who was so much fun and made literature very enjoyable. Which even though I am an English major, I have experienced teachers who were able to suck the life out of literature.
  • My french Professor, Madame Gammon- thank you for your patience. Learning languages has always been hard for me. I had a speech problem when I was younger. So taking on French has been a challenge for me. But I appreciate the help and the enthusiasm that you exude. Thank you
  • All the new friends I have made at Pellissippi- thank you for all the new memories that I have. I hope that I will be able to get to know all of you better.
  • All the soldiers that are fighting and have fought- thank you, thank you, thank you. I honestly can't thank you enough for fighting for this country. It is a hard job and you go through more pain, hardship and struggle that most people would see in a lifetime. I'm proud of you, even if I don't know you. Keep up the good work, don't get discouraged, and have faith.
  • The founding fathers and mothers of this country- I thank you for fighting for freedom, I thank you for making the sacrifices that you did. We can never truly understand that hardships that you went through. Do not worry, your sacrifice will not have been in vain. I will never forget.
  • All those who do not like me- thank you too. You have taught me to ignore what you think of me, to not care about how you feel about me, and how to just live me life as though you were not there. And if I had to work with you, you have taught me how to show respect to others and to be kind and compassionate towards others, even if I did not receive it in return. Thank you.
  • St. Joan of Arc- one of my biggest inspiration and someone who I hope to be like. She is a woman of strength, wisdom, and strong faith. She led an army of men and between the ages of 14-16. I thank her for all the times she has listened to me. She is like a friend that I wish to one day meet.
  • God- For everything. My family, friends,me, my dog, boyfriend, and all of those in my life. For giving me strength when I needed it, listened to me and for every time he forgave me.
  • Myself- Yes this one is very weird, but I am thankful for me too. I am thankful that I have become a better woman over the past 2 years. That I have become more motivated and that I have been working with more determination to reach my goals. That I have taken life by the reigns and took charge of it. I am thankful for what I was, for what I am now, and what I will become.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Enjoy the food, the family and most importantly have fun!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Stuck in a Rut

For the past month I have been feeling stuck in a funk. I have gotten behind in my classes, my grades haven't been as up to my standards and I feel overwhelmed by it all.

Reasons for being behind:
1.) Bound to happen, after all more homework is assigned throughout the semester and so occasionally something will slip through the cracks.
2.) My boyfriend was visited me for 2 1/2 weeks.... I love him, but because I enjoy so much time with him, he can also be a distraction. A good one, but also bad because I have other things I have to work on as well.
3.) Thinking that I have enough time to do everything I want.
4.) Extracurricular Activities, same as above. I just have to remember to prioritize.
5.) Bad Habits die Hard! After all this is the 1st time I am really trying to put effort into my schooling, not procrastinate and still have fun. I'm not used to that.

So my awesome game plan is this.....I'm doing it on here to keep myself accountable, if people know it, I will think, "Oh shot," I really have to do this.

1.) Finish My English Proposal
2.) Study French Vocabulary
3.)Finish Puppet Show Script for English Project
4.) Finish Designing and making Puppets
5.) Finish Set/Scenery
6.) Read over Madame Bovary
7.) Read over the Death of Ivan Ilyich
8.) Study for French Test
9.) Study For World Lit
10.) Put together movie project for english- reason for all the puppet talk
11.) Finish reading Ch.9 for World Religions
12.) Get ahead in math

Wow I have a lot to do. I know I can do it I just have to kick my butt into gear, motivate myself and remember my goals. Right now My goal is to get all A's so that way I will be able to get a job next semester without it upsetting my parents. My parents are very much that I should focus on just my grades, but with how things are changing, I know that there are many companies/ business, etc that won't hire someone unless they have had job/ leadership experience of sorts.

I try telling this to my parents, but I don't think they understand or they honestly believe that they will look at my grades more. Oh well I shall just work within their rules.

Anywho I have a goal and a mission. By this time next week I will post my awesome project up that I will have presented to my Lit. class. Wish me luck!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Been a Busy Semester Prt I

Wow this semester has gone by so fast. I have done so much this semester and been so busy, I never have enought time in the day. Where do I begin....



Classes

I am taking 4 classes, which is a lot of fun. I am taking World Literature II, Beginner's French, World Religions, and Developmental Math. I'm not perfect Math is hard for me, but I am getting better. We have to use this Carneige system, which is overall okay, I just wish that I could get a professor (not a computer) to help me understand math. But that's my little rant on that. With my World Literature class it is awesome, I always love going to that class, I never dread it. My World Religion's class is cool, the professor is neat, very laid back and relaxed. And in my French class I really feel like I am always working my brain, its challenging for me to learn languages. This time however I will learn the language and "Think French." {That's becoming my new motto.}



Orgnizations

I have joined a few Organizations; Gnosis, Imaginary Gardens, and I'm thinking of joining a few more. Gnosis is a service learning group. Gnosis means spiritual knowledge or mystically enlightened. apprently on the campus they are called a "rebel group" and they have cause quite a stir. It is interesting because there are so many different types of people there, with a wide and I mean w i d e range of people. Usually we hold a few meetings a month and we can go to any of them, just as long as we pay our dues. We do learning events at the meetings and hold bigger ones for the community college. I will mention more of what we have done in another post. We also do service for the community, this weekend I will be joining others to help get training to volunteer for Family Promise (I think that is the name). We do other kinds of volunteer work as well, which I will keep you all up to date with.



I also am a part of Imaginary Gardens as one of the students to help out together the literary magazine. We do poetry, short stories and digital copies of art work. I'm very excited about this I know I'm going to at least summit one poem and one short story (I just have to finish editing them).



My Family

Nothing much going on there. Things have been a little hectic, last week my parents went to a benefit in CT and got to meet the Gene Wilder. For anyone that doesn't know he was the oroginal Willy Wonka and is still the best. My parents got autographs, talked with him, got a big hug from him, everything. No pictures though because he doesn't do that anymore, can't remember at the moment why.



I'm helping my brother with his homework. It has been a challenge, with his Autism. But I'm so proud of him and how he is doing, it has been great. I have started doing tongue twisters with him, but I really can't think of that many. If anyone reading this can recommend some to me, please let me know. I really like helping my brother with my homework, it has been fun adn rewarding, although some days I'm really not in the mood.



My dog, Amber, is spastic as usual. She is adorable and the older she gets, the more she acts like a puppy.





Oh I have to go, I have to make phone calls and check up on the news. Til Later!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

To Remember...9/11





This Saturday is Sept. 11, 2010...it will have been 9 year.

9 years ago all of our lives changed. Many of us lost family, friends, and loved ones. Many brave men and women acted heroic on that day and they continue to do so.

With hearing about the pastor, Terry Jones and his church the Dove World Outreach Church (A really peaceful sounding name, for a not so actively peaceful members). Here is there website, although at the moment it doesn't work http://www.doveworld.org/ . There has been on and off debate on Terry Jones part about whether or not he will burn the Qurans....

Really burning Qurans.

Here is an article about it here... http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2010/09/09/obama-calls-plan-burn-korans-stunt-urges-pastor/ . I don't want to get into it debate it too much because everyone who is against this will say one thing and the very few people that are for it are hypocrites.

But I will say this....

First of all that is disrespectful, I wouldn't want someone to put a cross on fire or a bible. And although I would still have my faith and still carry on despite of it, I would still be very upset by it.

This is no way to act towards one religion just because some people are crazy extremists.

The best way to remember this day and all those that suffered and di. ed is through prayer(and or meditation/reflection).

If you are on facebook there is this group on there, please join, it is open to everyone and every religion.

Here is the link: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=157576307591653

And don't forget love and prayers for all the families this Saturday.

Thank you

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

No News is Good News??? And News on Me!


So for about a month I really haven't paid attention to the news. So I am kind of clueless about what's going on and you know what I have proved a theory, "Ignorance is Bliss". It is kind of true. Not knowing what is going on in the world for a few weeks is pretty nice. I remembered when I did watch the news constantly, literally every day, I would feel aggravated for at least 1-2 hours of the day. And you know why???? Because there are so many idiots out there that want power, are greedy and in the process decided to screw around with the world.

For this month I have just been focusing on myself. I haven't even watched Glenn Beck and I admire the man, even though I don't entirely agree with everything he believes in. I haven't watched Fox News, CNN, MSNBC, ABC, etc. at all. Only occasionally do I look on Drudge Report, but I could not tell you what I had read. The last thing I remember reading was when they compared Michelle Obama to Marie Antoinette....it had something to do with the fact that she was going onb way to many vacations and that as a result she was dragging secret services everywhere, which was costing taxpapers....there it is.

Other then that I haven't followed anything. It has been nice.

At the same time though I do still want to follow the news, I have always been one of those people that believe that a person should be informed about what's going on and that there is no such thing as too much information. It is hard though becuase I become aggravated and depressed by the fact that there are so many selfish people out there.

That's one of the parts about myself that I want to work on, that I can be informed, make decisions, and learn about the world myself (using my own knowledge and logic) and reach the truth. All the while I want to still be able to be happy and have some sense of hope and faith that this situation that we are in will become better.

I could never be apathetic about this or anything for the matter. For me being apathetic is the worst sin ever. So I can't become this kind of person otherwise I would be a hypocrite.

So that is one of the things I will be working on in the next month.

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As of news for my life there are new things going on, I will be signing up for classes this week and I will be starting classes next week. I'm kind of excited. I know I will be taking English classes, maybe an art class or history class. To be honest I have no idea, but I will find out soon.


I hope things work out at my new school, I will be definitly trying to join some organizations and do some volunteer work. Hopefully I could maybe get a part time job there.


I have been helping my brother with his homework, which has been definitly an expereince. He has autism so it has been a challenge, but I'm glad for the bonding.


Well I got to go look at classes. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Brides O' the Emerald Isle


I have finished quite a few books lately and this was one of them.

Title: Bride O' the Emerald Isle
Author:Pamela Griffin/ Vickie McDonough/ Tamela Hancock Murray/ Linda Windsor
Mass Market Paperback: 348 pages
Publisher: Barbour Publishing, Inc.
Genre: Christian Romance/ Fiction
Rating: 3 1/2 out of 5

This books has 4 stories; A Legend of Love, A Legend of Peace, A Legend of Mercy, and A Legend of Light. A Legend of Love is ther main story, you could say while the other stories, yes can be seperate, they also give some background to the main story as well.

The main story. It is about Moyra O'Cullen in a little town in Ireland called Ballymara. In this town there is the Ballymara Castle where the Pledging Stone Chapel has beenn the place of many lasting marriages. However this is threatned by a travel reporter, Jack Andrews, who has a desire to discredit this tale. This part of the story takes place in contemporary Irealnd. It was good for what it was I just wished that this story was more developed.

Then there were the three stories all of them take place farther and farther from the present time. It starts from 1895 dealing with an American cowboy and an Irish lady so to speak. the next story is about 2 orphans, Ardghal descended from a clan that has been causing trouble. While the other, Brenda is related to a Lord and the romance between her and Ardghal may cause so problems. The last story takes place in 500 AD where it deals with the spreading of new Christianity, here a believer and a pagan cross paths and because of one night of lies, are forced into marriage.

From these stories it helps bring about the legend of the pledgins stone.

Overall this story is a quick and easy fun read, but besides that I wish there was more development. To be honest each of these books could have been seperate or part of a series and it would have been better. If you want something simple and fun, without the sex like a lot of other romances have then this is the book for you.


Small Town Quaintness



At the very beginning of this month I went with my awesome boyfriend to Fayetville, Tennessee to visit his family and the home where he grew up. It was so beautiful and amazing. It was like time literaly stopped, there was so much land. Miles and miles of nothing but farmland, there was even this huge transformer like tractor. It crossed the road which just made me laugh because it is like often do you see that everyday. Well this huge tractor like thing, no idea what the real term is, started spreading these wing like things over the field and it looked like it was giving a spray.

And that was just when we were driving to his house, which was still over an hour away. But besides that....

There was of course the town center, where had a courtyard, and a buidling (I can't remember if it was a town center or a courthouse) but this building had its own bell, which was an actual bell and rang every hour. The town center had a movie theatre, a bookstore, I think a barber shop , and a few antique bookstores. I loved it.

I literaly felt like time had stopped there. There was of course some stores and fast food places that have been cropping up expanding the area. But you can tell the town still had that small town feel, I just hope that that feeling continues to stay there.

I went on a walk in the area, feed some horses, which I believe that the family that owns them rehabilitates them. I was even told by his parents that the population has stayed the same for many, many years. I will have to come back and put the exact numbers on here about the population, but I remebered it was very interesting.

Visiting his family was a lot of fun, I was glad I got to them better and become closer to my love. Just when I think I knew everything there is to know about him, I am always learning more.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Busyness!!!

So I just noticed something while writing the title for this blog: busyness and business. This may have been obvious to others, but to me this is a revelation. There is a definite connection between the two. I wonder if business came from busyness???

Moving on though I have been very busy for quite some time, I have been studying my butt off for this class, reading other books, hanging with my friends, chillin with my boyfriend, and all the while improving myself and trying to go nuts :D.

I am so excited though, within two days I will be completly done with this class. So far in this class I have gotten 2 A's on 2 exams and I want to get that last A.


Besides that I am dealing with paperwork for Pelissippi and its been a total pain,everything from registration to financial needs. I won't be going back to UTC where I originally was going for quite some time. But I won't be able to because I have been ill for quite some time and my immune system sucks as a result.

I am getting better, but until I am back to my peak I am going to stay at home and go to school.

Either way I am very excited to be finished so that way I can relax a little bit before classes start for the fall.

My plans for the rest of the summer is excersie, write more, post more on this blog, read more, practice on my flute, and maybe even paint and draw. I'm pretty excited.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Heart Pounding, Extension Pulling, and Coke Whore Showdown!

Right now throughout the entertainment and reality tv industry everybody is talking about one thing, The Real Houswives of New Jersey. Now I haven't been watching RHNJ that much, I prefer Real Housewives of New York instead. But when I kept seeing commercials talking about this upcoming episode, I was hooked. I watched a majority of the marathon they were having on Bravo that day. I had to of course take a break from all that craziness and drama.

To begin last night's episode I believe is the craziest in Real Housewives history, even more crazy than Teresa Giudice (again involved in the drama that happened on another RHNJ episode) and the breakdown of Kelly Killoren Bensimon from Real Housewives of New York on which she finally revealed her pyscho self to the world, even though she is still in a state of denial about it (remember people those that don't question their sanity are insane).

To the actual episode it starts off where it left off, which is that Teresa Giudice is waiting out in the hall for Danielle Staub to say hello to her. First of all if you have been watching this show, or at least hearing about it, you know that Teresa strongly dislikes Danielle. Now why she would want to say hi to her, there can only be two reasons:

  1. She really wants to make up
  2. She wants to "stir the pot" and cause trouble

I'm betting on the second one myself. To continue though....here she is sitting and the Jacqueline Laurita comes in and she knows that Teresa is stiring the pot as soon as she hears that Teresa wants to say hi...and she still stays there. If that had been me, I would have removed myself from that drama, but maybe she was trying to stay to make sure it didn't get out of hand. Maybe. With this show, you can never be too sure.

Then we have the encounter, I swear when I saw this I felt like I was watching like the wizard duel between Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy during Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, except they are both equally bad. It was as if I was watching it all go down in slow motion. Well soon things got heated, with the conversation sounding like this, "Do you like it b****?" "Foreclosure!!" "Coke Whore!!!"

It was on...

Teresa got up, Danielle ran (with her posse and bodyguadrs protecting her, kind of). Teresa chases after her and Jacqueline chases both of them (for attention, to be part of the action, to still stay in the camera shot...who knows). This continues for a bit throughout the country club.

Then there is my favorite part. A random woman is trying to get out of the way of the housewives and camera crew stampede and says, "This is f***ing bulls***!!" That was priceless and her face was perfect too.

Danielle is seen running outside hiding near some bushes, telling her friends that she wants to get in the car, but they really don't listen to her (which they should have by the way, otherwise things would not have escalated). And out of nowhere we see Danielle's hair (weave, both, whatever you get the idea) by Ashley Laurita. Who then later justifies it by saying she had heard from someone that Danielle had hit her mother. (Ok this would get me irritated and riled up if this was my mom, but I know my mother can take care of herself.) I think it was the other factors of Danielle bothering her before that really got her and this was just an excuse.

At this Danielle is carried to the car and stays there until the cops came while Jacqueline is standing there. With this part I honestly think that she was just standing there to make sure no one came over there and that Danielle wouldn't get out of the car. just my thoughts.

So it was very eventful. Since I was so inspired by this I played with some photos and I am very happy with them. It looks better when you enlarge it. I don't take credit for the picture above, I just the text that I added to it. And the Duel scene you see, well I think you can tell what I added. :D

I have a Confession....

I have a confession to make to the world. It is sad, but nevertheless it is true....I am a reality show junkie.


I have watched a lot: All the Flavor of Loves, I Love New York, Daisy of Love, Rock of Love, Tough Love, Tough Love Couples, (Anything on VH1 basically), True Life, and a lot of the housewives shows on Bravo.

Yes I know reality tv shows are pointless, take up lots of time, and do nothing to stimulate the mind whatsoever. But hey so what...they are the shit.
Seriously after a long day of class, reading, writing, keeping track of what's going on in the news, and working out the last thing I want to do is try to stimulate my min any further.

So I watch reality tv. Now that I have made my confession and explained myself a little more, I can talk about what happened while watching a reality show last night.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Finished One Exam

So I have just finished taking my first exam for this and I am very glad that this is done. Man that was a hard exam, it was not multiple choice. There were stupid identifications, short answers, and we had to do 2 essays. It took 2 hours for me to finish this test and my hand starting cramping up. I was so glad to be done with this test, now I know what to expect in the future.

I haven't finished my reading response....but frankly I am tired and I plan on doing that tomorrow morning. I did start on it (a tiny bit) but I should be fine. Other than that there is nothing really else I can say about today. I'm just proud of myself, I hope I get an A.

Although of the girls that is in my class today wasn't there. She is really nice and I met her on the 1st day. I hope everything is all right with her, cause she doesn't seem the typr of person to miss an exam.

Anywho other then that nothing much else is going on. Off to watch reality tv...a way to vedge after reading lots of english. For an English Major it can get hectic.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Marie Antoinette's Hidden Life


So I have just finished another book!!! Yah go me!

Ok now here is the info about it

Title: The Hidden Diary of Marie Antoinette: A Novel
Author: Carolly Erickson
Mass Market Paperback: 341 pages (plus 14-16 pages for reading group questions)
Publisher: St. Matrin's Griffins, New York
Genere: Fiction/Historical Fiction
Rating: 4 out of 5 stars


For all of those that love the French Revolution Era, Marie Antoinette, or just French History in general. This is a great book.

Carolly Erickson, author of 20 biographies writes the historical fiction The Hidden Diary of Marie Antoinette: A Novel. It is, of course, writen like a diary. The story line is that this Diary was left behind in her prision cell as she was going to her death. The reason she wanted people to know her side of the story. This book shows Antoinette in a light that for some of us, history has not shown. We will learn to see her as a young girl that had to leave her culture, country, and family behind and go off to France to get married to a man she never met. Upon her arrival she is met with disdain, distrust, and confusion. She doesn't know who to trust and has to learn of all the customs, while at the same time looked down upon because of her heritage. Despite all of this she stays strong and learns her way. Dealing with a timid husband and a failing kingdom, we see the strength of Marie Antoinette being displayed in this historical fiction.

It has a prolgue and chapters, which was one of the few reasons why the rating was lower. I think that having the chapters in there was a little off, seeing how this was said that this would be in diary form. It can help space out the Diary entires and mark a change in the topic and what is going on, but if she had kept it in just in the diary form, I think it would have been better. The reason why it would have been better is because I want to be lost in the book and be able to use my imagination and imagine that this is literally a diary taken from the prison cell where Marie Antionette spent her last days. I know it isn't but I want to be able to get lost in the book for a while.

Althought there have been debates over the book by Marie Antionette fans about some of the characters that don't exist and some of the events that didn't take place. Please remember that this is historical fiction, this is not an accurate telliong of it. It's not a non fiction book, it is fiction.

Overall this book gets 4 out of 5 stars. It was creativly done, written well, and very enjoyable. Defintly a book for those that love historical fiction.

Friday, July 9, 2010

Technology is the Bane of My Existance...




So this morning somewhere in this world has planned a consipracy because everything is not working. Many of the the computers at Pelissippi State suck!!! A lot!! Also my IPhone is not getting any service and its been like this for almost 2 hours!!

I know what the solution may be to that, which is to update. However I will not be able to because of the fact that I am at the Pelissippi Library and I have to update with ITunes and this computer doesn't have it! So I have to wait to get home. My phone is like my lifeline, its like my I.V. So I'm freaking out right now.

As for Pelissippi computers, they are ridculous. On some of them you are not able to access the start bar at the bottom, which mean if you are on the internet you can't do anything else & there is no minimize button at the top right corner of the thing for the internet and every time I try to close out of it it comes back on. This is not just one computer its about a majority of them. Luckily I found a computer that will at least let me get to the start button, but it won't let me maxmize the internet screen....so yeah.. This morning has offically sucked.

At least I can get my phone (hopefully) fixed. As for PSTCC, they say that they will be hopefully updating and fixing things by the end of the summer before the fall semester starts....let's hope so cause their system sucks!
I wanted to try to get some work done before class, but I am so miffed about everything I just want to scream and not deal with class today. I just want to go home an fix my damn IPhone and I know this sounds a little childish but damn it this morning has sucked.
Not to mention my mother's IPhone is not working either...

Ugh

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Life Goes On..


So far my month of July has been great. I hope that it will stay that way, because I like have this happy content feeling I have been having. Right now I'm in the Pellissippi State Library right now waiting for my class to start.

Good news about the last class I took this summer.

My American Literature I class (that I worked so hard in) was a sucess...I got an A!!!! I'm still overjoyed about that. Since I was sick all last year the highest grade I made was a B, so seeing an A right now, really, really boasts my confidence.

Also this past weekend was an awesome weekend, I got to see some of my friends, hang out with my family and my boyfriend got to come up and spend the weekend with my family. He and my family got along really well. That made me very happy. I was great we went to a few bookstores, drove around K-Town, spent time together playing the new Harry Potter lego game (Years 1-4), it was the awesome!!! We also went to the World's Fair Park, and saw the fireworks and listened to the Knoxville Symphony Orchestra. That was fun, but I'm not sure I would do it again....still on the fence.

This past 4th of July was pretty important and special for me. Not just because of my family, friends, and my boyfriend. It's because of everything that has happend these past 2 years. It's not just because Barack Obama is the President and we have a democratic majority in the House & Senate. That is a part of it, but not the reason. They helped play a part when it comes to question everything I have known and been told since I can remember.

An example with education, how many of us ever thought we were going to question what our teachers and professors told us? After all they are the "experts" they are the ones that know there stuff. How many of us read about history, science, and literature beyond what we are told in taxtbooks and the classroom? I know for me science would be a little hard seeing I am an English Major ( I also want to be a History major as well, I have just not filled out the paperwork yet to do this). But for me reading Literature and learning about History is not a hard thing. But others find it boring....which is a shame.

I use to not read a lot of historical non fiction books, after all it just wasn't my interest. But I started watching Glenn Beck. I honestly originally did not watch him even though he was on Fox News because he was on Headline News ( supported by CNN). But I started watching him and was amazed with how he was able to go after both parties with completle honesty. Then there was the fact that he talked about history and how it can apply to today, this was exicitng for me simply because I always thought that this was true. Then he really started to go into detail about history, that's when my brain went, "Wait....what!?!?!?!?"

He started talking about all these people, places and events that I have never heard of in American History, especially Colonial era during the time of the American Revelution, which my family and friends can tell I love readin about that era and I am an enthusiast. So for me not to know these things, immedialty put me into action. I started doing more research on what he was talking about and at the same time trying to find at the same time to see if there is any evidence that contradicts it. However I soon realized that I wasn't finding any evidence to contradict what he was saying, in fact I was finding more evidence to support it.

As a result I feel what I have learned in all of my class cannot be taken at face value. Like I said in my last post I really can't know who or what to believe anymore. I have to go straight to the sources.

I almost done reading a book called "The Hidden Diary of Marie Antoinette" by Carolly Erickson, it is quite good. After I finish reading that I think I will be reading a biography she wrote called "Misstress Anne".

Yes it is about Anne Bolyen, but I find her just fascinating and also since I checked it out of the library I should try to read that first instead of the other numerous books I have. I don't think I should check out books for a while, unless I have a paper to write. I always do this, I try to not to, it's just that I love books so much.

Anyway I should get going my class is in about an hour and I want to be able to read more of my book before class starts.

Oh and by the way for all those that live in Knoxville, Tennessee. it may reach 101 degrees today (which may be a record for the area of Knoxville). Stay cool everyone during this hot summer and have a great day!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

What or Who Should I Believe.....

I have always been a questioning, skeptical person. An example being was I always asked all these questions about Santa Claus and I was persistent (after all we didn't have a chimney, so how did he get in?) I soon learned tht answer to that question :D

Now there have been parts of my life that I never thought I had to be skeptical towards when it comes to believing it and that is in the classroom. Call me naive, inexperienced, young, etc. whatever. The point is this I never thought I would have to wonder whether what I was being in taught in class was true or not.


I hear some many facts abotu history that contradict each other. I read different historical books, hear different facts from many professors and even stuff on TV: History Channel, Natinoal Geographic, and even Glenn Beck with his different specials that he has and his most famous one Founder's Fridays.


I hear and read of so many contradicting facts from all kinds of sources. I don't what to think. What I would like to be able to do is to be able to is to read the original documents and see it for myself, instead have other people and teachers telling me what to believe and think.


I want to think objectivly for myself, not have someone else do it for me. After all I don't like being told what to believe. I know I'm not the only one to believe this.


I know now what I need to do, I need to research anything that is of interest to me and write about, to help create interest in others. To help them to learn for themselves and to help them appreciate the amazing history of this great country.


Never Forget where we came from, for if we do, we will forget who we are and will be lost. I hope that if we do get lost, we will once again find our way. For I fear what to think if we are lost forever.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Something Disturbing ......Soviet National Anthem.... & Communism in America...

I was just browsing through people's blogs and I came across this link. It was a youtube vid about the USSR national anthem. Listening to it, oh it gives me chills.

Now I never lived during the time of when Communist Russia began, but I did have ancestors that lived in territories that were under USSR control. My ancestors came from what is modern day Ukraine and Slovakia. Now I don't know how the area of Slovakia was affected but I do know a little bit about Ukraine. Stalin and his Soviet Union was responsible for something far worse then the Holocaust in my opinion. The numbers even state this.

I'm talking about the Unkrainian Genocide.

I'm guessing you never heard of it. Neither did I untill a year ago. I was watching Glenn Becks show and I learned more about it. But that topic will be in my next post.

Seeing this is really bothersome for me. Yes I know I have the right not to watch and and people have to right to put it up, cause of our Consititution. Nevertheless. Seeing and hearing the Soviet Union's National Anthem- talking about how people are free and that they are a great communists nation in the same sentence...its like hearing Hitler and hero in the same sentence for me. It doesn't make sense. I advise you to listen to it and see how they made themselves look and how they wanted to have themselves viewed.

This link is to the communists party in America!!! Did you know we had one, I knew....but I didn't think how troubling they were.

http://www.cpusa.org/

But more then that...please...please look up information about the soviet union. Don't just believe anyone the politicians, your professors, me. Think for yourself. Learn the true history of it all.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Books I have Read and Want to Read #1

I have a lot of books. I want to read all the books that exist. I had a goal to finish about 10 books by the end of this summer.

This is What I have Read so far:
  1. The Bad Queen ~Carolyn Meyer
  2. A Child of Hitler~ Alfons Heck
  3. Sybil ~ Flora Rheat Schreiber

...I need to get a move on. Although with taking classes and reading a lot there, I'm sure its understandable that I have read beyond that class.

Here are the books that I want to read that I have so far:

  1. Rebel Women of the Gold Rush: Extrodinary Achievements and Daring Adventures ~ Rich Mole
  2. Remember the Ladies: The First Women's Rights Convention ~ Norma Johnston
  3. Setting the Record Straight: American History in Black & White ~ David Barton
  4. Samuel Adams: A Life ~ Ira Stoll
  5. Reading Like a Writer: A Guide for People Who Loves Books and for Those Who Want to Write Them ~ Francine Prose (love the last name...fitting for the book)
  6. Ladies of Liberty: The Women who Shaped our Nation ~ Cokie Roberts
  7. The Audacity of Hope: Thoughts on Reclaiming the American Dream ~ Barack Obama ( I can't believe I'm going to read this but I can't critcize a book if I haven't read it, even though I know I might gage from reading it)
  8. The Shack: Where Tragedy Confronts Eternity ~ Wm. Paul Young
  9. Republic ~ Plato
  10. Vanity Fair ~ William Makepeace Thackeray
  11. Dearest Friend: A Life of Abigail Adams
  12. Guns, Germs, and Steel: The Fate of Human Societies ~ Jared Diamond
  13. George Washington's Sacred Fire ~ Peter A. Lillback with Jerry Newcombs
  14. How to Read Literature Like a Professor: A Lively and Entertaining Guide to Read Between the Lines
  15. A Severe Mercy (With Eighteen Letters)~ Sheldon Vanauken
  16. Narrative of the Life of Federick Douglass, an American Slave~ Federick Douglass
  17. My Dearest Friend: Letters of Abigail and John Adams ~ Edited by Margaret A. Hogan & C. James Taylor
  18. The Color Purple ~ Alice Walker
  19. The Three Musketeers ~ Alexandre Dumas
  20. The Man in the Iron Mask ~ Alexandre Dumas
  21. The Guardian ~ Nicholas Sparks
  22. The Princess Bride: S. Morganstern's Classic Tale of True Love and High Adventure ~ William Goldman
  23. A Tale of Two Cities ~ Charles Dickens
  24. What Could He Be Thinking? : How a Man's Mind Really Works ~ Michael Gurian
  25. The Lovely Bones ~ Alice Sebold
  26. Essential Dialogues of Plato
  27. Dracula ~ Bram Stoker
  28. Grimm's Fiary Tales
  29. Eight Plays (all by Henrik Ibsen)
  30. Cold Sassy Tree ~ Olive Ann Burns

So these are the list of books I want to try to get to this summer...I know I need to get going. And if you are wondering I have more books then the ones listed above...I just know I can't list all of them.

The Books that I am reading are:

  1. The Writer's Journey: Mythic Structure for Writer's ~ Christopher Vogler
  2. The Overton Window ~ Glenn Beck
  3. Founding Mothers: The Women who Raised our Nation ~ Cokie Roberts
  4. The Hidden Diary of Marie Antoinette ~ Carolly Erickson

So I hope I will be able to get to this. I was thinking about writing a book review on the books I have read...but I have to get to the reading for my class tomorrow. Maybe I will do that later tonight before I go to bed.

Been Busy With Classes

So I haven't been on my blog since I have been taking classes. Right now I am taking a class at Pelisssippi State Techincal Community. Its American Literature I and overall it has been awesome. We have talked about everyone from Anne Hutchison, Roger Williams, Benjamin Franklin, Thomas Jefferson, Frederick Douglas, Nathaniel Hawthorne, Herman Melvile, etc.

Overall I have been enjoying this class. Everynight I have to read about 50 pages of reading for the next day, it just depends. I also usually read more about the background of the author and other writings that our porfessor says that we don't have to read it, but she recommends it. So I take no chances, so I can be prepared at the end of the day.

I have had some annoyances while in this class, actually just one continuing annoyance. There is a girl next to me that rarely pays attention in class, she always is trying to copy other people's notes (as a result of her texting on the phone and not paying attention) highlights her book to the point where the page is moslty bright flourescent yellow (no one taught this girl how to use a higlighter) and this girl is going to be finished at the end of this summer at this community college.... really I know people get lazy at times I understand, but with her attitude and how she talks, she did this the entire time!!!! I know its a community college and it will get harder and blah, blah. But this girl is the kind to repeat questions in class that goes something like, "Wait...huh...w-w-what page was that on? Wait I don't see that, what page did you say it was? Umm what did you say the answer was?" And on and on. I sit next to an idiot and she keeps sitting next to me! I know I could move, but I like being close to the front.

Anyway, this class besides dealing with stupid girl has been a lot of fun, people might groan at that but I love literature, I have my own library(that's for another post). My favorite readings that we have done is:
  1. Benjamin Franklin's Autobio( a part of it)
  2. Anne Hutchinson's stuff
  3. Frederick Douglass Narrative (a part of it)

I found these works my favorites, I found it to be inspiring and brilliant. I didn't agree with everything the professor said not because of my own personal beliefs, but because she was going on feelings of the what she got from the text, not using history of that person to interpret the text. Like with Benjamin Franklin, she said that he was that not much of a believer in God. Thats not true, you could say he would be considered a modern day non denomination Christian of sorts. For we were talking all about the His list of 13 virtues; she said he used them for money making puposes???? What!?!?!?!?!? Okay He did this, mostly because he wanted to be a better person and also ( this part Im not as sure of, cause I'm trying to recollect some research I had done a while back) because he knew that since he had trouble believing in the divinty of God, he thought that by practicing these virtues he may become a better person and maybe have a better understanding of God. But then again she is allowed to have her own opinion and I do respect her a great deal. Besides this, I really haven't had any moments that make me go Huh?

Now the one thing I learned a lot about was Frederick Dourglass. I admire that man, he is very brave and strong to have dealt with what he did. I am so glad I was able to read a part of it. I will be reading the full Narrative in the Future, I already bought it.

Back to the class itself....

So far in this class I have gotten 2 B's on 2 exams. An 88 & an 81. I have a strong B in thsi class. I am very proud of myself. And I have only missed one class; despite the fact that it is 8:00 every morning. I guess it helps that I'm home and I have my mom to tell me to get my butt up. ( :P )

Anywho I have just turned in my paper into this class this past Mon. and I will be taking the final exam next Mon. I hope I can get my grade up to a strong A!!

I'm also thinking of taking another class in the next session, American Literature II. I hope I wiil be able to take it. I know it may be shorter, but so far I was able to do real well, hopefully I can get it up to an A with the last test. I just have to do real well. Either way, I will be really proud of myself.

Well wish my luck with the coming exam next Mon!!


Monday, May 31, 2010

Sybil: A Story that Can't be Made Up


Title: Sybil: The Classic True Story of a Woman
Author: Flora Rheta Schreiber
Mass Market Paperback: 512 Pages
Publisher: Grand Central Publishing
Genre: Biography, Memoir/Health (It's sometimes in this section)
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

I started this book around March and I finally got to finish this book last week. It is a really great book to read, if anyone is interested in psychology, multiple personlity disorders, or just want to read an amzing book this is it. I do recomened beforehand though that you do not read this book if you are depressed and feeling down at the time; for throughout most of this book, it is not a happy story, its really painful, but helps you to appreciate life more and it's really insightful.

Sybil: The Classic True Story of a Woman Possessed by Sixteen Personalities written by her friend Flora Rheta Schreiber, it is a true story about a woman who throughout her child had an abusive mother, an apathetic father, lived in a town filled with purists christians; with their end of the world lectures being an every day norm, and also as a result of her disorder, she didn't have mamny friends and when she did she's told by her family to not be with them. I would tell you more about the book and an account of it, but I don't think I could do the book justice and I hope that it would encourage you all to read this awesome book.

All of these traumas that she experiences that go through and plus with the fact that her family has a history of mental disorder, she developed 16 different personalities that were all trying to live independtly of the waking self.

There has been a great deal of talk about whether or not this story could be true. If this story is not true, someone has a hell of an imagination and if it is a true story, then the person that went through it all is truly strong, amazing and a remarkable person. I give Sybill props to being able to do what she did.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Getting Motivated

So I haven't really felt that motivated lately. I think a part of it is because of the fact that I simply have just been feeling frustrated. I'm sure there are many people out there that can relate to the facct that when you are around a lot of people that seem to be able to get what they want without working that hard, that it is very frustrating to others like me, who work very hard and we are lucky to get where we are.

It's so hard to be motivated when it seems no matter what you do you just never seem to get there. I feel like I can never seem to get what I desire, even if I go after it. For me I think it has gotten to the point at times where I honestly feel "what's the point"??

It also takes a lot for me to get motivated anymore because I have this mentallity, this way of thinking. I know that the only way for me to be able to feel more motivated is that I have to change how I think. But the other thing is that I have to be able to accomplish something at least once, before I can truly believe that my hard work will pay off. So far to me, I have been shown that the only way to get ahead in life is to


  • Have Money
  • Have Connections
  • Sleep Around
  • Be the Same Like Everyone Else
  • Be a Bitch or Basterd

And!

  • Be Selfish

So yeah you can say I am not motivated because of all of this. I am working on it, like a great deal of many other things.

There are 3 goals this summer that I want to accomplish:

  1. Get a job at the Oak Ridge Library

  2. Register for a Math Class at Pelissippi State

  3. Loose Weight

The things I have to do for each of these things really isn't that much.

For the 1st one I have to fill the appilcation form, finish the resume and hand it back in, by tomorrow. They are having turnovers...so I need to turn in the form fast.


I also have to register for a class at Pelissippi, but I have to first get a transcript from UTC, then I have to go in sign up for the class. Then I have to send to information back to UTC so I can get the Veterna's Affairs office there, so that way they can send a letter approving me to take a class there and so that way I can get the finacial aid that I need.

With the last goal, I have to loose weight. My only problem is that I love junk food, I'm not a big fan of working out and I never had to habit of watching what I eat or working out, because I never had to. I was always skinny, and had a high metabolism, I still have a high metabolism compared to others but I'm not where I was a year ago. I think there have been other factors of course, I was badically sick for 4-5 moths this year all together, my appetitie has been extremly up and down, I have been so stresed out with everything, and I felt like everything was out of control. So my goal is to not only loose weight, but get my metabolism back to where it was and perhaps even make it better.

Either way I need to get more motivated and I need to accomplish something, with doing all the hard work that I have done.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Friendship....Is it Real? A Dream?

"Don't Walk in Front of Me, I May Not Follow. Don't Walk Behind Me, I May Not Lead. Walk Beside Me and Be My Friend."

Friendship: the state of being friends

I don't know about the rest of the world, but I have always had wondered about friendships. Despite the fact that I do have some friends, I have a hard time believing whois my real friend and who is there out of convience. After all there are so many kinds of friends that existed:


  • Those friends that you know through other friends

  • Friends that you have in a club you are part of, but don't really spend time withoutside of the club

  • Friends that you had since childhood
  • Friends from high school

  • Friends from college

  • Friends from where you work

  • Family friends

  • Friendly Aquaintences

  • Buisness friends

  • On the surface friends

  • Those people that you are once friends with, but through time you just lose touch

and last but not least

  • The friend that's always there

  • Me as my own friend

It's strange how there are different kind of friendships and friends. In my experience I have always found it hard to be able to differentiate. It has taken me many years to figure out true friends, to be honest I still have some trouble. Frankly, it has been hard for me to figure out whether or not I have friends.

For I have always been paranoid when it comes to opening myself up to other people, I won't go into details, but lets just say I was one of those kids that was severly mistreated and frequently betrayed by those who I thought were my friends. Well I did learn from my mistakes, but unfortunatly I kept running into the types of people who I thought were my friends, but really weren't. Heck I can write a book about the many types of people that you think are your friends, but really aren't.

So you can say that for many years and sometimes to this day, I have a little bit given up on the idea of friendship. You can say I'm not that kind of person that trusts people off the bat anymore. I am getting better though. It took till college for me to really believe this, the idea of friendship. The person that introduced me to this concept was my boyfriend. He really was able to show me that I can have friends and he was able to prove it. He was able to show that some of my sorority sisters are in fact really my friends. He was able to show that I can trust.

It still will be hard, I have been through a great deal. It has left many scars that you can say are still visible. Only through time will be I be able to accpet the idea tha friendship can become a reality, that it is more then a dream.

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